It's just all wearing me down...

How could it be so hard to find some fun guy to have regular sex with? I am just not a complicated girl and am not looking for something serious. You would think that I would be the perfect catch. Every freaking time I go out the same thing happens, either I think they are hot but they aren't interested or vice versa. The problem with the vice versa is that I feel like a complete ass.

Take last night for instance - nice guy, into the same things I am into, we talk for like four hours. But no matter how much I drank, I just couldn't get into him. I feel like a jerk. The one comfort that I take in it is that it isn't just some superficial looks thing. Some of the guys I have been hot for recently were not as good looking as this guy. It just really is some sort of weird "chemical" thing, for lack of a better explanation.