General Update

I just don't really feel much like talking but at the same time have some sort of overwhelming guilt around blog abandonment. I think part of the issue is that there was a big misunderstanding with a friend regarding something that I posted a while back. In a way it all worked out ok because it forced us to talk out some bigger issues. In another way it made me very blog conscious. So I don't know. It is kind of a down day in general as things don't seem to be going quite right on many fronts.

Here is one thing that is good...I got the most amazing christmas present of my life yesterday - a theremin built into a pee wee herman doll. Deal with that!

Here is a question for you...Is it okay to be sad because someone else is happy? Not in a jealous or malicious way but in a way where you know that happiness may directly impact you in a negative way. I don't know, I have been thinking about it a lot. A lot of people say life is a juggling act but I think they are talking about tangible things. Well what about emotional things? I feel like I am constantly juggling my emotions around, rearranging them to make things simplest for everyone involved. Is this what other people do? is this normal? More importantly how long can I keep it up?

It's only flaw

I have been watching a lot of DVDs as a result of my injury. Currently I am watching the "Untitled" version of Almost Famous. I feel that it is one of the most perfect movies ever made. Well, now I have found a flaw - it is totally unnecessary to have both "Mona Lisas and Mad Hatters" and "Tiny Dancer" in the movie. Small flaw but it did kind of stick out for me today. Actually a line from the movie really sums my feelings about what has been going on today:

"She was your biggest fan and you threw her away"

It's a nice line.

You inspire me (to write in my blog)

Commenter Evan - I think I have an internet crush on you. Mostly because you are the only person who bothers to comment on my blog.